I'll try, I'll try

Movin' on...well, not up but out

2007-05-28T05:18:00Z

Hey, I was hasty in picking my name and decided [instead of studying] that I'd make a new one. So, guys, friend me on im_amartyr All my topics are transferred but none of the memes or junk especially the gay memes. It's nice to leave those along the wayside.

[TM] Topic #2 :: Rhett Butler Quote

2007-05-28T00:53:23Z

Write a ficlet inspired by the following quote: "What most people don't seem to realize is that there is just as much money to be made out of the wreckage of a civilization as from the upbuilding of one… There's good money in empire building. But, there's more in empire wrecking." Rhett Butler, Gone With The Wind (Margaret Mitchell).

Nathan loved laying down next to his wife, just listening to her breathe. A time ago he had showed her that his eyes didn't have to be open for him to know what she was thinking. In his eyes, Haley knew him best out of everyone. The sun hadn't come up yet and he found himself awake, silent, contemplating his senior year. His decisions and his mistakes.

He fiddled with his wedding ring, turning it around his finger. He couldn't sleep, and he hoped he wasn't waking his pregnant wife. She needed all the sleep she could get. She had been working all day on her valedictorian speech. He moved quietly to prop his pillow and sit up making sure that his wife didn't feel his shift.

He laid back against the pillow as Haley's eyes fluttered open. She glanced at her husband, wondering why she was not in his arms. Rolling over to glance at the clock she let out a "What's wrong?"

Nathan looked over at his wife and then back at the closed door to his room. "Nothing."

Haley let out a sigh before propping herself up against her pillow and looking straight at her husband. "It's not nothing."

Nathan took a moment and breathed it all in. He was lying and his wife knew it but he never wanted to worry her. "Why does there have to be something wrong. Maybe I just can't sleep?"

Haley didn't even say something as she cracked a half smile and gave her husband her, "yeah right" look.

"Okay. Okay." He couldn't help but laugh because after everything they had been through in only their senior year he knew he could never lie to her again, at least not effectively. "I just, I can't help but think about what's happened." He paused and eyed his wife. "With everything. And, I'm happy about where we are right now but I can't help but regret so much."

"Nathan..." Haley brushed her hair back with her hand as she tried to think of something to say in response.

"The thing is, what I can't get past is how we've come so far and how all of our past mistakes have brought us here. I just wish that we didn't have to go through your tour and those months apart and the accident on the bridge and my point shaving to get here. Except, I get it." Haley blinked, waiting for her husband to continue. "We might not be where we are if we hadn't had our lows as much as our highs. So, I guess what I'm saying is...let's go to sleep. We've got school in the morning."

For once Haley wasn't the voice of reason in Nathan's head. For once Haley didn't have to fix the situation or help Nathan in any way. And she was okay with that. She smiled, kissed her husband and moved with him as they got more comfortable and she resumed her rightful place in her arms.

Haley lay there, her hand caressing her husband's stomach as she attempted to drift back off to sleep. "I love you so much Nathan." But he had already fallen back asleep. Having calmed himself down he was simply content to have his wife in his arms.

I am not a sheep

2007-05-26T04:14:29Z

If you guys really think I'm gonna take that long-ass rate my life meme you all have another thing coming.

But.

I love Haley James Scott. And to me despite the problems and the drama and the struggles my life is a 10.

That's all.

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.3
Mind:	4.4
Body:	8.6
Spirit:	4
Friends/Family:	6.2
Love:	10
Finance:	3.1
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

OOC

2007-05-25T15:12:02Z

I am now caught up with Season 4. I downloaded them all and marathon'ed them like crazy. So, I am finally up to speed. I get the dash of salt references and the martyr reference, I get everything. Just letting you all know. This makes me even more excited now to RP since I now have a full deck to play with.

For tricky_heart

2007-05-25T00:08:29Z

[Locked from Haley]

So, Peyton's come up with the idea to throw Haley a surprise shower. Apparently, I'm smart because I came up with the idea. You think your mom would be into catering that kind of event?

~~Also, you haven't really been around, Luke. Something on your mind?~~

[Unlocked]

School sucked today.

More memes

2007-05-22T03:47:53Z

<td align="center"> As it turns out, Nathan is aroused by ...

Little Red Riding Hood

'What crazy thing are you aroused by?' at QuizUniverse.com</td>

Only 28 questions this time

2007-05-22T03:01:00Z

1. Your Middle Name:
2. Age:
3. Single or Taken:
4. Favourite Movie:
5. Favourite Song or Album:
6. Favourite Band/Artist:
7. Dirty or Clean:
8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:
9. Do we know each other outside of LJ?
10. What's your philosophy on life?
11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
12. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?
13. What is your favourite memory of us?
14. What is your favourite guilty pleasure?
15. Tell me one odd/interesting fact about you:
16. You can have three wishes (for yourself, so forget all the 'world peace etc' malarky) - what are they?
17. Can we get together and make a cake?
18. Which country is your spiritual home?
19. What is your big weakness?
20. Do you think I'm a good person?
21. What was your best/favourite subject at school?
22. Describe your accent
23. If you could change anything about me, would you?
24. What do you wear to sleep?
25. Trousers or skirts?
26. Cigarettes or alcohol?
27. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?
28. Will you repost this so i can fill it out for you?

This is a public service announcement

2007-05-22T00:31:03Z

Everyone, request a "growl" button on livejournal's home page. This would be a button that, when pushed a growl should sound. It's the best idea ever and me and Haley agree we should campaign for this.

WE WANT A GROWL BUTTON!

YOU SHOULD TOO!

Just a little message

2007-05-21T01:16:24Z

OREOS IN MILK OWN OREOS IN HOT CHOCOLATE EVERY TIME

More Sunday boredom...sorry Hales

2007-05-20T23:01:09Z

So...umm, I'm pursuing myself during my midlife crisis...I lost myself? And..LUCAS is going to be the best sex of my life? I am burning this meme. BURNING.

iscrewupalot's LJ stalker is chosendarkness!

chosendarkness is stalking you because another friend of yours told them you liked them. They are also slowly poisoning you!

LJ Stalker Finder
From Go-Quiz.com

I think I'm done memes for now.

I used to watch that show! From Peyton.

2007-05-20T22:57:55Z

<td align="center"> Nathan --
[noun]:

A human transformer (Robot in disguise)

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

Uh, someone tell this test I'm married...

2007-05-20T22:42:14Z

The Vapor Trail
Random Brutal Love Master (RBLM)

Here today, gone today. You are The Vapor Trail. Are you in a relationship now?

Your exact male opposite:
The Backrubber

Deliberate Gentle Sex Dreamer

What about now?

Vapor Trails can be highly charismatic people--unpredictable, confident, and magnetic. You're experienced. You know how to handle yourself in a relationship, and many people appreciate that. Many people, all in a row.

You've had your share of blissful beginnings, to be sure. But things almost never turn out how you'd like, do they? The problem is you're never happy with someone for an extended period of time. Relate to the following:

Vapor Trails especially need a girl who will laugh at their jokes. They're also the most likely male type to be haunted by serious regret.

FACT: A few of your exes, the ones you were best to, will always love you. Nice going.

ALWAYS AVOID: The Intern (DGSD), The Maid of Honor (DGLM)

CONSIDER: The Sudden Departure (RBLM)

Link: The Online Dating Persona Test @ OkCupid - free online dating.

The Vapor Trail is heading your way.

[VC] 002. You're in a bar

2007-05-20T22:18:24Z

002. You're in a bar, having a drink by yourself, and someone takes a seat beside you. This person could be anybody - someone you know, someone famous, or someone you've never met before in your life. The person strikes up a conversation and asks you to tell them your life story. What do you tell them?

Okay, well, I don't get drunk easily, much less drunk enough to go into my life story. I guess it depends on when in my life this happens because there was a time when I spent more of the day drunk then not. I even brought a beer into school one day when I finally decided to go to school. Well, if it was during that time then I would definitely have spewed into my "I lost my wife to a rockstar" story but nobody wants to hear depressing bar stories except for the bartender and I'm betting that the bartender didn't pop a squat next to me. And I'll take this as now. After the whole point shaving controversy.

Okay, so it doesn't say you have to be drunk but I'm not the most open person when not drunk...or when drunk for that matter and my first instincts with people isn't "tell them my lifestory" it's mostly, "who the hell is this guy?" Okay, so I guess I decided a guy sat next to me. And I'm in the bar obviously squandering what money I've saved this week on a drink. Smart? No. But this is obviously not a logic challenge. Why I'm trying to turn this into that I don't know. I should just do this to get it over with.

Fine. A guy sits next to me and then person strikes up a conversation and he'll ask about me, my life, I look promising or ambitious or something that a stranger usually infers when they meet someone.

I'd say that I'm a guy who's made a lot of mistakes in the past. A guy who's learned from right and wrong, popular and unpopular, lawful and unlawful. I may look like a teenager who doesn't know much (or an older guy who doesn't know much) but I know a hell of a lot more then most people in this bar do. I've said and done things that some people never get to say or do. Like, I bet he thought I wasn't married. Well, surprise, bar guy. I am. Married. To a beautiful woman who's pregnant with our child. I've done things I'm not proud of, things I shouldn't. I've dove in after a family member (and a particularly hated school bitch) when their limo went over a bridge into a river. I've let anger completely take me over for months at a time which culminated in a crash of monumental proportions which made me rethink my life and my family situation. And after all of this I'd realize I haven't even touched on my parents.

Okay, well, my mom, Deb is great. She's been in rehab a couple times, mentally tortured by my father, and basically treated like crap for most of her adult life. My father, Dan Scott, the good ol' Mayor of Tree Hill single-handedly orchestrates so much of what goes on in this town and all for unlawful reasons and might just be faking a turn around.

I'd tell them about my brother, Lucas, who I used to hate with every fiber of my being until we became a good team and found a joint enemy in Dan Scott. And I'd tell them how freaked out I am about the future because I might have thrown my entire basketball career away at the press conference even though I know it was the right thing to do.

Yeah, my life's screwed up. But so is everyone's in Tree Hill really, if you think about it. I hope whoever sits next to me isn't from Tree Hill so they don't have to live with the problems that just living here brings.

And I'd tell them I hope they find true love someday because unlike what a lot of other people say, it is all it's cracked up to be. And more.

Why isnt there a cursing question on this one

2007-05-20T16:22:30Z

1. when you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
I look tired.

2. how much cash do you have on you?
...$50 and...43 cents and a nickel I just found.

3. what’s a word that rhymes with “DOOR?”
Floor, like "Do it on the"

4. favorite planet?
I guess this one.

5. who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your cell phone?
My mom. Asking how I am. She calls at weird times.

6. what is your favorite ring tone on your phone?
The fight theme at every athletic game ever.

7. what shirt are you wearing?
blue tank top.

8. do you “label” yourself?
Husband and soon to be father.

9. name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?
No shoes. Bare feet.

10. bright or dark room?
Very bright. It is morning.

12. what does your watch look like?
silver. nice. how else do you describe a watch?

13. what were you doing at midnight last night?
I'll steal Haley's answer...

14. what did your last text message you received on your cell say?
"I'm proud of you" from my mom about the press conference.

15. where is your nearest 7-11?
Down the street.

16. what's a word that you say a lot?
Haley.

17. who told you he/she loved you last?
Haley...or my mom if you count the very late voicemail.

18. last furry thing you touched?
Helped Haley out with the drain. Again, don't ask.

19. how many drugs have you done in the last three days?
None

20. how many rolls of film do you need developed?
None...but I may get us a digital camera...eventually.

21. favorite age you have been so far?
...18 or 17. Hmm, when I married Haley or when I was happily married. Yeah, 18.

22. your worst enemy?
~~Dan Scott~~ I don't have one.

23. what is your current desktop picture?
LeBron James. What?

24. what was the last thing you said to someone?
Scrambled. Haley's making breakfast and wants to know how I want my eggs.

25. if you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly what would it be?
A million dollars so I could Haley and my child the world...and help out my friends...and my mom.

26. do you like someone?
I don't like many people, I love very few but I'm in love with one.

27. the last song you listened to?
Something called Wilco that Haley listens to.

28. what time of day were you born?
Early morning. Dad missed a test.

29. what's your favorite number?
Gotta go with Haley's answer, 23.

30. where did you live in 1987?
...in the womb? Tree Hill I guess in some abstract way.

31. are you jealous of anyone?
No. I have Hales.

32. is anyone jealous of you?
If they are I don't know about it ~~but would understand completely since I am totally in love~~

33. where were you when 9/11 happened?
I think I was training, with dad.

34. what do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Go to another vending machine. What?

35. do you consider yourself kind?
I like to.

36. if you had to get a tattoo, where would it be?
Maybe the small of my back...Haley's name except like, HALES. Or something. I don't know. I had a nipple ring. That obviously...doesn't count.

37. if you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
Isn't French the language of love?

38. would you move for the person you loved
Yes.

39. are you touchy feely?
Only with my wife and even then I would label it as affectionate.

40. what’s your life motto?
Take it as it comes and protect the ones you love.

41. name three things that you have on you at all times:
Cell phone, wedding ring, iPod.

42. what’s your favorite town/city?
Charlotte. Because that's where I found out I didn't have HCM.

43. what was the last thing you paid for with cash?
Ice cream, last night on a walk with Haley.

44. when was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper and mailed it?
I don't really write letters. I emailed Whitey though, this morning.

45. can you change the oil on a car?
Yes. I'm a guy. So, yes.

46. your first love: what is the last thing you heard about him/her?
I heard she sang like an angel...

47. how far back do you know about your ancestry?
Dan Scott. Royal Scott. Uhm. Yeah.

48. the last time you dressed fancily, what did you wear and why did you dress up?
I'm going to steal Peyton, Lucas, and Haley's answer with proms, both in Tree Hill and Honey Grove.

49. does anything hurt on your body right now?
No, nothing.

50. have you been burned by love?
Yes, but it was worth it. How many guys can say that?

Another meme from pretty_girl

2007-05-20T15:56:25Z

Your Life Path Number is 6

Your purpose in life is to help others

You are very compassionate, and you offer comfort to those around you.
It pains you to see other people hurting, and you do all in your power to help them.
You take on responsibility, and don't mind personal sacrifice. You are the ultimate giver.

In love, you offer warmth and protection to your partner.

You often give too much of yourself, and you rarely put your own needs first.
Emotions tend to rule your decisions too much, especially when it comes to love.
And while taking care of people is great, make sure to give them room to grow on their own.

What Is Your Life Path Number?

Stolen from pretty_girl

2007-05-20T00:11:01Z

. Do we know each other outside of live journal?

2. What's your philosophy on life?

3. Negative or Optimistic?

4. What was your dream growing up?

5. Worst thing to ever happen to you?

6. Would you give me money or a slap in the face?

7. Tell me one weird fact about you:

8. Would you have my back or kick me when I'm down?

9. Do you Trust me?

10. Have you ever kept anything from me?

11. What do you think of me as a Person?

12. Do you think I'm sane or insane?

13. Would you cry for me if I died?

14. Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?

15. If you could change anything about me, would you?

16. How do you fall asleep?

17. Would you come over to yell at me or just call?

18. Would you go on a blind date if I set you up?

19. If I only had one day to live would you be honest or lie?

20. A million bucks.. what would you do with it?

21. What is your worst fear?

22. Favorite thing to do in your spare time?

23. How many times did you curse at me while filling out this thing?

24. Can you sing or dance?

25. In one word, how would you describe me? Be honest....

26. Do you think I'm cute/ugly/sexy/beautiful/hot/okay?

27. Will you repost this so I can fill it out?

It took Haley forever to teach me how to do this LJ cut thing so take the time to fill this out.

[VC] 001. The biggest myth about me is...

2007-05-19T23:25:01Z

that my life is perfect and that I can get away with anything. A couple months ago when Jimmy came into school with a gun and held me, Haley, Rachel, Skills and these other two students hostage in the tutor center we didn't know if we'd make it out alive. Jimmy made a comment about how Haley and I seemed happy, or in this case, seemed to be protecting each other. And he made a comment about how I got away with everything. How I had hurt her, ignored her for a month, treated her like she had betrayed me...which at the time I had thought that she...had but he didn't understand. We all have problems and I don't get away with everything. Far from it. Here's just a small list of things I haven't gotten away with:

1. Stealing a school bus after a home game. (It seemed like a good idea at the time)
2. Originally getting Haley to tutor me to spite Lucas. (Resulted in many fights)
3. Marrying Haley (my mom was so pissed off...not that I cared)
4. Crashing the race car (accidentally or, whatever)
5. Stealing money from a riverboat casino.
6. Point shaving.

So, if Jimmy is up there in...or down there in...if wherever Jimmy is has some sort of access to the internet I hope he reads this.

Because I'm not some elite guy. I don't get away with everything. I never have. And I never will and I kinda think I like it this way.

Okay, so I get that I did get away with the school bus incident but really, karmically(spelling, Hales)? I didn't. Cause back then everything I didn't want to happen, happened. Because of the massive suspension Whitey made Lucas was put on the team...and then I lost Peyton and well, long story short, I got away with it...but it didn't get away from me.

Or something.

Damnit.

2007-05-19T21:24:47Z

This is no way implies anything at all!

[TM] Topic #1 :: Mommy

2007-05-19T20:29:47Z

Okay, so I'm not the kinda guy who'd call my mom...mommy. It's always been mom. For the first 16 years of my life my mom spent most of my child hood away on business helping the Earth and the environment, leaving me alone with my basketball tyrant of a dad. Well, back then I would never have admitted to that. I would have told people my dad was really riding me hard over games but I'd never say he was going too far because hey, he had my best interests at heart.

Well, eventually I learned that he hadn't. It was all about him.

It took my mom's return to Tree Hill to see this. She came back in the beginning of my junior year and our relationship was pretty strained. But she was divorcing dad and that was for the best. I was busy with Haley and then dad had a heart attack and he never signed the divorce papers.

Mom hated Haley when we told her we had gotten married. Dad was in the hospital and she was in the chapel. It took her a few months before she softened and Haley had already gone, from me, from Tree Hill, and she had handed me money to find her. Not long after I ... had gotten into a car crash and my mom went into rehab. When she returned she vowed to me we would get out. Get out from under my dad, just get out for good. I believed her and I trusted her. Except, dad pulled her back in with his campaign for mayor. Yeah, my dad's the mayor of Tree Hill. A lot of sons would be ecstatic and proud but me, I'm just sickened. He held mom there, like his trophy before the town, the picture of a perfect family and when he won the election he left town.

She returned a couple months later. Haley and I were renewing our vows. Dan, my dad, made her life hell when she came back. And she almost committed suicide. But, it was an attempt and she survived. To say I'm worried about my mom is an understatement. Cause, she's the only mom I've got. Except, she's getting better. And she accepts Haley and I and she even drove Haley and me to our prom which under normal circumstances would be embarrassing but ... I was proud to be driven by my mom.

I don't tell her this. But I think she'll make a great grandma when our son is born. I just do. And one day, she'll get out. For real. And I'll know she's really safe. But for now. She's my mom. And I'm going to protect her and my family.

I love her.

Happy Mother's Day mom.

Your Stripper Info by radioface
first name
age
Stripper Name:	Monique
Specialty:	mastering those stilettos
Customers say:	"Can legs DO that??"

Your Superhero Persona by couplandesque
Your Name
Superhero Name	The Scotsman
Super Power	Can Cry On Command
Enemy	J-Lo
Mode Of Transportation	Shopping Cart
Weapon	Sporks

LJ Friends MASHO by kchic_01
Username
You will marry	chosendarkness
When you are	31
In	France
# of kids you will have	10
One of your kids' names will be	Sheldon
Yearly salary	$257,481,890,276
Occupation	Gradeschool Teacher
Your future neighbor	pretty_girl
Will pursue you during a mid-life crisis	iscrewupalot
Will be your friend throughout all of life	haley_tutorgirl
Will be the best sex you ever have	tricky_heart